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2011-06-21T03:06:00.000+08:00

2010-12-30T19:01:00.001+08:00

Life is all about CELEBRATION. :)

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#3 Love is....

2010-12-30T12:12:00.001+08:00

being with friends, and you know they will be the ones that see you through the toughest moments and not let you go. :)

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#2 Love is...

2010-12-30T12:10:00.001+08:00

Love is about coming together, celebrating the victories and being there for the ones who failed to encourage them as there are better days ahead.
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#1 LOVE is...

2010-12-23T08:54:00.001+08:00

When you know it is going to be a blessed day because of what is installed for you later!

All thanks to.... :)
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2010

2010-12-23T03:09:00.001+08:00

Time is soon to reach a new chapter called 2011. Indeed as the current chapter of 2010 comes to an end, I must say many good things had happened, a fair share of joy and laughter. Yet there were parts of bitterness, disappointments and perhaps despair.

It calls for a time for celebration when victories are tasted but in view of failures, courage was needed to put both feets up so one may walk again.

For me, it had been an exciting journey as I think back right now. Roller coaster ride indeed.
Let's see really as I think back what I had gone through...

Jan was a start when I started chasing Shuyun, also the time when I quitted from my first full-time job.
Feb was a pretty okay month with struggles of whether I should enter SOT but praise God, by then I was confirmed and accepted into it!
Blessings came then both financially and in terms of my relationship with the leaders like 80 and 95.
It was a brand new start by the time SOT started in March as there were many things that I'd took on like SOT ushering and making new friends around the world.
Assignments came, lessons were packed, blessings were still on the way with part time jobs that supplemented the income...
April and May were like the cruising period when everything was still on momentum, not to forget the peak being for the Asia Conference '10.
June was perhaps more exciting as I had found my new partner and everything then start taking for a turn though blessings were still on their way, in a different form. Not to forget the first taste of preaching in front of live audiences.

By July I started to see myself 'degenerating' from what I used to be. Could be an act of complacency, or simply my character could not support where God wanted me to go that I need to be corrected on the inside.
Ministry was a setback for me, with many things being challenged not on authority, but on my character to sustain what I had being entrusted.
God was still good as I embarked on my first mission trip to Surabaya, GpDI Elohim with 14 other amazing ppl and indeed it was an exciting time then doing many works and in hope of blessing the church and the city.
August was a breaking month with preparation of exams, handing up of assignments and of couse getting ready for our graduation. My second mission trip with Pst Darren to GpDI LC in Jakarta where we had Emerge Conference there! It was a blast and with the other good pals fm the zone, we certainly had fun and we could sense God creating history there! Many youths on fire, certainly a greater destiny yet to come!
Then came September and October when winter started for me. Family went through turmoil after turmoil, being unemployed myself. Financially it was not sustainable but God saw us through, every single day of it.
November was a revelation month of me, when things started unfolding on the future of myself and my family. Of course the truth was hurting but it was a phase we need to go through. The search for a job went on still. Ministry wise, it took on a lower turn but with new additions to the team that made a whole world of difference.
December. A month of decisive moments that determines the future, actions that will shape the course of my life. It was a visionary month as well as many more unfolded which will affect the future.
2 forms of separation I will need to go through, decisions I need to make that requires a hard reset of my priorities. More importantly, I was able to set pace to tell myself I can afford to slack no more, after many hardships I had to go through, unnecessarily.

Overall, it was more of a downtime when most of it had to be spent on re-building the trust that was lost by me, many whackings that could be avoided if I had been more attentive.
Power of leadership, discipleship, delegation and empowerment are the main things I need to learn.

Time waits for no one, everyone has the same amt of time each day as long as you are alive. What you do will and shall shape and break for the future.

I guess that is about all for me in 2010. 9 more days to go. Only these 9 days to make the 2010 most worthwhile yet, and making 2011 a great start for myself.
And most importantly, a new start of greater things to come!. God certainly won't let me miss out the fun I believe! :)
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The greatest of all is, love

2010-12-09T21:05:00.001+08:00

Life's never too hard coz God is there to support you and every stage in life brings you closer to a new level.

God is not one that just loves to joke, but loves to see people grow as well. He can choose to leave us alone but chose not to out of a great motivation called 'love'.

In all ways He has never fallen short of being there for us and standing in the gap with us. How bad things are, He is there to comfort and to strengthen.

love is not just sacrificing but also being there for the person, giving that person the best one can offer.

I'm glad my God has done all these, just for me.

But on a personal note, what is love to you and how will you express it to the ppl you love?

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2010-12-09T20:53:00.001+08:00

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2010-09-28T10:20:00.000+08:00

Life's not about revolving around the changes, but venturing through life to make the changes our own. -anonymous

Vision for a leader

2010-09-16T01:12:00.001+08:00

Vision is the oxygen, the breathing life of a leader. Without the vision, there is no leading, no direction to go.

2010-09-15T23:47:00.002+08:00

this is my 300th post since i started this blog 2 yrs ago! haha!

Before going on to the next level, we go through stages of preparation. In the stages of preparation, many trials and tribulations set us apart from our comfort zone. We face things. Either those we are not willing to step into, those that we fear or those that we never thought would happen or exist in our situation.
A good example will be going through our education to finally get our certification. Getting the certification is the level we must reach, but the exams, teachers (ooppsss), going to school that seem so far away etc are the trials we go through, to put it simply.

All things happen for a reason. We don't go through things as if it is a must to go through them only. There can be many pre-requisites to accomplish before we move on. The trials and tribulations at the stages serve as a platform of preparation before we embark to a new level. It often deals with our character or personality, things of the heart or the mind.
It revolves around our circumstances or the environment and the external factors causes us to make decisions that determines the course or ultimately the result of the trial.

If we can surpass ourselves to grow stronger after each ordeal as we make the right decisions, congratulations! You advance closer to the next level. Otherwise, I'm sorry!! You need to go through it again until you pass it! Something humour about God is He never fails to provide you with the many chances until you get it right! If not should you decide on a different path, God winds it around such that ultimately you will reach that place.

Just suddenly reminds me of the a building, with steps linking to each floor. No lifts, no ropes to climb on, just steps. The whistle blows, and you are on your way to finish a vertical marathon.
Each floor you advances represents a progress, every step you take to reach the next floor represents a small victory. Yeap as you spend longer time running, you do get tired. Often you tend to get restless, forgetful, disappointed, anxious. But something different about this marathon there are designated pit stops for you to rest, charge up and be ready before you rest again.
Sounds familiar about what I'd blogged before this example? Life is like a run in this marathon. You get excited in the beginning, full of energy and you run at your best speed. At points of life you get tired, tell yourself maybe I shan't go on, too tiring!!! Your mind tells you you'd done your best, let others run for you. For some, they just give up halfway, for others they continue on.
Continue on, you'll see the prize. Giving up, you'll see where you are and not the future.

God has a great purpose for you and me. What you and I go through now are just trials and tribulations. There are different levels for us to go to and advance on. If you are tired, rest. But be sure to run on. Time waits for no one. Don't miss out on anything!

Be open to change. Change is the only constant thing and it is usually for the better. If you need to open up your heart, change your mindset, do it. You won't lose out. Because my God is one who never shortchanges.

I need to be one that's ready and open to change! Roar! PRESS ON, BREAKTHROUGH, GAMBATTE! :P

2010-09-15T03:03:00.001+08:00

Need to find a job asap!! Things are coming on, not on full force yet but surely it will come...
Got to be prepared and the only defense and offense i have is You.

Everything about You resides in me. Got to pull out what's necessary to fight the battles, wage victory cries against my enemies!

Though they may come from the left or the right, though I may be surrounded, but as long as the banner is raised high, i'm afraid of nothing. Even my fears will have to be casted one side as faith takes over!
As the enemies charges in, I shall fight a way through because You are one who provides all that I need.

In the midst of the darkness through the trials and tribulations, i will be tested. Out of all these the victory awaits me, to claim the eternal crown. To reign and rule with You.

I may be the weary but You are one who gives me strength, power and wisdom to fight.

You are the ULTIMATE symbol of victory!
Praise You always!

Moments, Decisions, Eternity

2010-09-14T16:22:00.001+08:00

Moments - period of time in which we live in.

Decisions - one which is determined by the moments we live in and affect those we will
live out.

Eternity - where time matters no more, but affected by the decisions we make.

For every moment we live in, it is because of the decisions that we make. And those we make will affect the future we have and hence our eternity.

Enjoy each moment you have, make the right decisions and embrace the long awaited eternity of time.

Blog revamped!

2010-09-14T15:03:00.001+08:00

Yay, just revamped my blog! More clean cut and i like the fresh look! Definitely a new start! Just realised i'd hardly blogged for the yr.. Haha.. Gotta kip it gg to blog more! :):)

But still gotta figure out how to put in the tagboard.. Anyone can help? Lol..

Cmg back later to blog.. :)

2010-09-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

Get it going. Even if you fail just keep going.

When you don't move, there is no hope to where you are.

Even as you are walking in the shadows of death, keep on going. You will not know what is at the end till you are there.

Walk on, run on, jump on. Do anything and everything you must to keep on going.

No matter how bad or how good it may be. Persevere on. All things will turn for the better, ultimately.

2010-07-29T17:23:00.001+08:00

I'm reminded of this, "If you can last through praying, you can last through anything."

2010-07-29T16:51:00.002+08:00

been a long time since i really blogged? haha.

last 5 months had been an exciting journey, especially since SOT started? as usual there are the ups and downs, roller coaster rides which many people will go through at different degrees of it.

in whatever circumstance there is, God teaches us to rejoice and praise Him no matter what happens. I was just reading the book "how to become a Contagious Christian" and read this section where some flaky Christians would throw away their emotions and will continue to "Praise the Lord" etc.
I'm not trying to condemn such actions as being inhumane or being illogical as each have their own perspective to go with. One thing I like about God is that He gives us emotions to freely express ourselves, be it happiness, sadness, excitement, melancholic or even anxiety. It makes us really 'human' don't you think?

It is because we have emotions that we can express how we actually feel towards God or others in the various circumstances. :)
Try saying "Praise The Lord!" in excitement and compare that with saying the same line without emotions. How much difference it will make, seriously!!

just today in school, suddenly got reminded of how vulnerable one is, to slide back from being enthusiastic to being laid back. And to think of it, I went through that as well, during the last 5 months of school seriously. thoughts of wanting to do this and that, to being care-less of every other thing that's not new to me or to do it coz' of others commitment to the particular subject. I'm not easily affected by others' passion now...

At just about the same time it occured to me as well how true it is, that your character supports the level of your success. You can be brought to a level where you are successful because of the situation you are in but if your character cannot sustain that, you will fall to the level which your character can sustain you best at, from your last level of success.
That of course, by no means an accident to remind others how much you need to work on so that you can be ready when the next leap of success comes in, that is a constant work of maintainence and building strength into your character.

Of course do be mindful of what can cause you to degrade in your character, like viruses causing damage to the body for as long as it stays active in the body.

Okay, just a brief summary of what I'm watching out or going through myself in this season. :)

more updates coming up! hopefully. :P

2010-06-12T14:53:00.002+08:00

Everytime there's always the amazing grace from God that abounds you to receive the love from Him, when you face disappointments or depressing times.

and that alone do tell that God is always and just so faithful, never giving up on you.

2010-05-21T17:45:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it does seem nice to just enjoy moments of quiet.. And watching others having fun in their world.. Almost like u can feel the joy..

Random posting

2010-05-11T07:03:00.001+08:00

What about now that you'll want to do the things, if you have only one more hour to live on?

Ever find yourself in too late to do one particular thing for others that you'll live in regrets?

Life's mysterious (so is God. :P). There are so many happenings taking place at the same time and all will require our attention to a certain extent. How do you want to prioritise such that you are living right for the season and not missing out what's the juice of it all?

Life's fragile too. We do come and go and we'll never really know or even being warned when to meet the Lord..

So just asking, what's the thing you'll do for someone, and living out your best as if today's your last day? :)

Convergence

2010-04-27T16:58:00.002+08:00

Convergence - The way to achieving excellence by doing the things you like or have passion for.

No excuse for not enough time, everyone has the same amt of time, 24hrs a day, 7 days a wk. It's a matter of prioritising.

2010-03-18T01:07:00.002+08:00

woohoo it's being long since i last blogged. coming close to a month? haha..

this last one month had been an exciting month as it was a period of not just transition from work to school but also into what i believe a more challenging phase of my life, for the next 6 months at least. haha.

one of the more exciting things could be i got admitted into SOT probably. something i never imagined myself of doing yet as i had decided to do so, things began to change for me. one level can be myself seeing God moving in a more practical way, where the right people are just around for you at the right time, blessings coming in when you had least expected to etc.

fellowship with the CUs like Alex and Adeline are something which seem a bit far fetch for my lvl, so let alone really to learn from them but at that period, God just opened up the doorway and i really felt honoured. :)

above that, many things opened up for me in terms of taking on more things in cg, blessings of God coming into my life in terms of my 6 months of school fees FULLY paid for, getting a job which is flexible yet high earning for me.

of course, all these are the appetizers. God's really like saying 'Now that I have taken care of your physical worries, it's time for you to take care of My worries for you.' which means more things to come! in terms of challenges, persecutions probably, growing in capacity and faithfulness etc. SOT wun be just a bible school but a life-changing experience. Probably right now I won't be hoping for the best of what SOT can offer in terms of the awards but more for God to change my life, in a dramatic way, mind blowingly! :)

OPM now anyway.. till laters!

Random posting...

2010-02-19T02:54:00.001+08:00

Just a random thought. Attended 2 wakes in 2 days.. How fragile life is... Seeing the strength put up by the loved ones to 'hide' the loss really admires me. The way you want to tell others 'I'm okay. Dun need to worry about me,' cracking lame jokes and putting a smile on your face despite the tiredness and the situation.

It's almost like you could sense the fear and sadness fm the person over the loss but yet the person has the strength to present everything's gonna be alright, life still goes on look. It's not about disguising the loss, but it's really bringing the zoe life of God into practical I feel. Really like the heroes of the Bible singing praises to God at their most down time, giving glory to God despite the tiredness effortlessly, having the necessary countenance to show all things are alright etc. The +ve attitude you carry. All represents the love, strength and grace one carries through God.

My heart really went to her as I was looking at her fragile face, not slping for the last 40hrs, hanging on to ensure things are fine and all goes well etc. I could see a fragile face, yet a strong spirit with the attitude of able to do all things. Source of motivation: Christ...
HM, if u r looking at this, i really admire your spirit and indeed you are my role model! Thank God for such a strong person like yourself that really supports and strengthens even in the toughest of the situation. Hats goes all out for you.
Certainly your dad is now enjoying his fellowship with God now, don't worry ya? :)

Leadership, what is it all about really? Choosing to lead to serve, or serve to lead?

As you set off as a leader, what kind of image are you posing to those under your charge. As someone who leads, you have to be one that gets prayed up and disciplined in life because all that matters is setting your life right for others to follow or learn from.
A leader is out to serve and give, with the right mindset of wanting to bless and bringing others up closer to their destiny.

How do you categorise as a leader over others? When you have followers and those who listen to you.
What's a leader without anyone to lead? But what really attracts one to be under the authority of the other? Similarly like Jesus, what attracted the multitudes to listen to Him or to seek after Him wherever He goes?
Where's your area of influence? how strong are they on the people you know?

Followers follow a leader because he is able to provide something which the followers can or hope to learn from, thus value adding what's in their lives. Be it spiritual teachings, talents in music etc. Because the followers are deprived and want to know more, that's why leaders with those criterias are chased upon. Because of what they can offer.

Comparing 2 masters (one gd and one bad) and you are the slave waiting to be bought over, (the gd master can pay less than the bad maxter for the same slave and can teach more as well), which oone will u Want to be.

A leader's never easy. you must have the capability to meet the needs of those under you, serving those around you and those who have authority over you. In short, a 360 degree leader.
Yet it is never about just serving and fulfilling the mins and quotas. It's about meeting needs and being the best of who we are and in others.
what's a person when he or she loses his or her soul? If we get too technical and less relational, how different are we from robots?
Yet as human it's natural for us to understand each other and meet needs out of the love God has for us. What's there to hate when love exists?

Random posting today... Till next time. :)

Essentials of Life - Blood

2010-02-16T23:07:00.001+08:00

Sometimes it can be so scary when faith stops working in ur heart, and the blood can no longer pump on just beliefs alone.

Beliefs are just like your red blood cells of the blood, bringing about the convictions, your dreams, visions and principles to all around the body.
At the same time, faith works like the white blood cells. Providing the immunity and anti-bodies, they help protect the very things you believe in, in every way.

Faith don't work together with fear, which are the viruses that comes to kill the red blood cells. Instead, faith works against it and the confidence which grows from the faith double secures the victory.
Faith and confidence works specifically towards the different kind of fear and setback, making each immunity unique. (similar to the lock and key model)

Hope. Acting like the platelets of the blood, they bring recovery to the wounds, wherever it is.

Love, as the blood vessels of the body. Helping to channel all the important ingredients around which provides an overall circulation of those to ensure things are running to perfection.

Try relating yourself when you are injured and wounded physically to the times when you are so discouraged and desperate.
Under those 2 circumstance, imagine how the blood actively outpouring into the wounded area, ensuring the area has enough blood to sustain the survival.
The blood vessels transporting the blood, red blood cells acting as filter and helping in the transportation of foreign bodies remains out of the wound, white blood cells acting against the germs or viruses to prevent infection, platelets quickly clotting up the wound to ensure blood is not lost further.

Similarly in the supernatural how the love of God can help bring about healing when we are at our down times. The love providing the necessities of the healing process. Beliefs and convictions you have secures your existance and life, the faith acting against the fear, the hope that brings new light to the wound that allows you to move on.

How true it is as you see how faith, love, hope etc works hand in hand, functions similar to how our body works and co-relates.

Was just thinking of how life will work when faith fails to exist when i think God gave the idea of what I'd blogged..

I just love God as who He is. :)

Do or do not?

2010-02-02T12:07:00.000+08:00

It's often a contradiction how people wants to give but yet afraid to give. Probably the same for many others in terms of doing something etc.

There's always a desire within us to do that one thing, but fear always hold us back from doing it. Fear of not able to do it well, doing it till the end or even failing it.
Well, more often than not how many of us always hear of this line from others 'I'll try my best'? Nothing wrong with it really and at least the person is willing to give a try.
I'm often remembered by what Yoda in 'The Star Wars' movie used to say, ''Do or do not, there is no try.'' Simple words, yet the amount of confidence involved in saying 'you will do it' instead of 'i will try'.

Probably I should be less skeptical this round in not saying we should always say 'I will do it', but rather we should give ourselves a chance to do it, even if it means being less confident.. Even i can't say everytime that I can do it with full confidence.

Somehow I still thank God for the grace involved because when we step up in faith to say we will do it, He will give us what we need to overcome the difficulties and help us to complete what we has set out to do.

Very nice God I have coz no matter how hard things are, it will be of abounding grace that will push things through for me. :)

Gonna have faith!

Love

2010-01-28T00:41:00.001+08:00

Love. Source and motivation to how things are made to happen, people to bond, miracles and wonders to take place.

Without love no relationships will exist, no communication will occur. Life virtually becomes dead.

But as love becomes the motivation, there it shall be that nothing is impossible for anyone and anytime.

It involves a simple matter of concern, an act of service, a sacrifice not out for rewards, pure giving without agenda, moving on with a vision, being full of passion and never afraid to fail.

Full of faith, courageous and bold.

Life is simple. We are made to love. Love exist over boundaries and time.

Surprises

2010-01-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

Recently God has been pretty surprising.. Constantly springing surprises fm nowhere, with changes i nv expect to take place, at least not on me..
Old doors closed behind me but with new ones opened, catering to where I'm heading or where my talent is in..
Got challenged into areas where i'm good at, to be better, capacity expansion..

Somehow i'm still coping with the changes that'll take place, and definitely more to come. At least more things to finalise before new year commences prob. I guess as compared to some, i'm quite in a unique position where I can serve in many areas and it's actually pretty for me to switch ard. But problem may be where will i be best at?
and track record as compared to those in my cg, is definitely different in some sense..
Haha..

Suddenly i realised sth... Time for me to change my goal settings for this yr le.. Many things await.. :)

had attended ALTC today as well and man it was good! Went right to the basics on the heart of a person.. And very creatively still rmbing how beatrice used the eg of the coke.. Haha! And it was a renewal of my r/s with God.. :)

Cool mth of jan.. Better things yet to come! :)

I'm just beginning to love my life more.. :)

recalling the dream...

2010-01-21T08:23:00.002+08:00

suddenly i remembered about my dream and i'd blogged about it 1 yr ago, so for my own sake, just tot of posting that blog again... as follows:

Whenever you wake up, ever asked yourself how you want this day to be shaped? What do you want to achieve in this day itself? What dreams will I have today?

Haha I've always been thinking how life will have been if I'm without dreams and goals, without something to look forward to everyday. Perhaps dry, without a direction so will be at a loss as to what to do at times?
Thank God really that there are always things I want to go for, everyday. That He had given me dreams, talents and exposing me to areas where i can use my skill to benefit others.

So what is this dream I'm talking about? To be involved in social work, helping the less fortunate especially families to re-build their homes and to give the young a better future. Making a difference in their lives as well.

Since young I had always been associated to be self centered and basically, I don't know how to share. If my brother needs anything I won't relent and what is mine will be mine. Selfish? Yup absolutely.

After graduation from secondary school and into polytechnic, I was being exposed real-time to what we call voluntary work or community services. A group of 5 of us set up a club called NP Soleil which aims at helping the residents of Red Cross Home for the Disabled under Singapore Red Cross Association. What we did was to organise monthly visits to the Home, with many different activities related to festive seasons etc.
I still remember one of the bigger projects we had was to bring the residents out in SBS buses to Orchard Road during Christmas to view the lightings and all. Absolute wow with what we could do and I could always remember the smiles on the faces of the residents back then. The students and lecturers themselves too had the fun and through this I found the joy to help people with needs to be met.

Anyway time in NP was short but was experiential. Thank God for the oppurtunity to be helping out in volunteer work out of school and that's when I got to know CHCSA and Vic aka my CGL is one of the social workers there. So can imagine the number of activities I could be involved in, even till this day!! =)

Being there, exposed to me to greater areas of serving and the projects can be so diverse, from painting one-room flats to workshops at schools, to camps and projects aim at changing lives through books etc. And groups that I had came across with range from ex-inmates, youths, elderlys and families in need.

It is through all these that I realise I want to reach out to these groups of people to make a positive difference in their lives. God has also through all these events, taught me that people are the key, not the SOPs or the technical items of the event. Just like how a country values its people as the main resource.
That is also why right now I'm planning to take up Psychology degree with UB in SIM in August and so far I had people affirming that I'm actually on the right track so thank God for this. =)

I'm very excited about realising this dream of mine and as long as people is my passion and with God in it, I'll have a great future ahead! This also came by through ushering in church and event management in my current job that I can be equipped better for the future too! Amen to that!
Found it funny but I ever thought of setting up a business, a social enterprise to help me realise that dream and event management can be the thing! :P

So what is your dream?

No dream is ever too small. Dare to dream BIG!

面对，态度

2010-01-20T17:14:00.006+08:00

有时候当人面对困难的时候，他的态度会是怎样的呢？在那当儿，他会鼓起勇气，不管多难的事都不临阵退缩，或者会闪避所有的责任？

而当他在处理问题时，是带着乐观的心情说 “我行的！！” 又或者有着很冷漠的态度，说这 “不关我的事，做错就做错。反正船到桥头自然直。” 更离谱的他可能抱着懒散的态度，什么东西都不管。

在你的身命当中，什么是最重要的? 在处理对你来说是重要的事，你会抱着怎样的心态处理它呢？

author

2010-01-20T08:18:00.000+08:00

as you open up your heart like an open book, God as your author will begin to write on it, the purpose and visions and dreams He wants you to have.

2010-01-19T13:48:00.000+08:00

letting go may not be an option because God gives us things that we can handle.

yet sometimes letting go does not mean giving up, it means you may be moving on to somewhere greater.

dreams...

2010-01-19T12:14:00.000+08:00

yay, now another time of posting during lunch time! wee!

this movie came out last wk in Singapore but it was already shown in US since Nov last year. When I first saw the trailer, it was pretty exciting and the scenes really showed the extraordinary life-changing experience of a man named Michael Oher, from a boy nearly recruited into street gangs and poor GPAs in schools, to a man who graduates from college, earning places in universities with scholarships and a sportsman in american football.

it really touches the heart and it's not because of the person or the whole experience, but a simple gesture of extending help and reaching out to a helpless man, raising him up to be one of good worth. it simply rocks.

ever imagined how a simple gesture of help and thanks can actually change a life of a person, for the better? talk about impacting lives!
it never requires alot to give. just compassion, love from the heart and passion.

i once dreamt myself doing community services, social work and organising those kind of events.

but that was during poly times when i was already doing those. then later the dream just died. i no longer thought about it, nor talked about it. things didn't seem to go the way i wanted it to be. this probably continued for about 2 years?

then came 2010 when the Haiti earthquake came, the movie 'The Blind Side', CG is planning on some community outreaches, these caught my attention. then this dream somehow got revived and i started to think about it, all over again. how it came about, how it was brought forth and other significant events.

how should i go about doing it? doors seem to close on certain ends, i don't know how to go on from where i am now. friday marks the last day of my work here in NIE. a short break i'll be taking, but time passes very fast.

I need to decide how I want to go on.

2010-01-18T13:35:00.003+08:00

as the flow of water goes, so should one's flexibility be. be as flexible and volatile as water in what you do.
water gives life and energy. if one's not too fixed on things, there's so much fun and energy in his life. power of freedom and creativity.

Glimpse of light

2010-01-18T10:40:00.002+08:00

what does a glimpse of light means to you?

As simple as 1, 2, 3

2010-01-18T08:39:00.001+08:00

life can be as simple as 1, 2, 3.

1. Think
2. Decide
3. Act

:)

love

2010-01-18T08:24:00.003+08:00

thing about loving people, is just to simply love them. probably the simplest action you can do is just to think of him/her, what he/she may be doing etc.
and as you naturally think of the person, you will want to find out about it and that's when you start to either call or sms them.
thereafter the thought comes of wanting to do something simple for them, just to make their day.

reason: he/she just matter to you so much that love abounds all things. :)

2010-01-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

What does it mean to be pushing through and persevering for your visions?

What does it mean to impact the ppl, or through your daily interactions that r/s can be built and strengthened?

What does it mean as well to have ppl walking in the same vision as you, or ppl who are there to support you, no matter what?

Random posting...

2010-01-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

Wow, it's already 2 weeks into 2010 and time really passes so fast! I wonder how has each of ur 2 wks been for u? Haha..

Suddenly for the last 2 days i've been thinking of what to blog or twit.. Nth seems to be cmg out of my mind, at least nth meaningful or personal enough? :S

The only thing that seems to be ringing in my mind is my recent post on the human body thing... Some may noe recently things @ work didn't fall really well, and my last day is actually next fri! :S time really passes pretty fast that's why i say..

Time to decide on what my path will be.. I need to obtain a driving license by end of this yr as well! Many, many on the list building up.. And alot requires the money, and it's a long term thing! *looks into own pocket* and just got to know 'Arise and Build' '10 will be from Mar - Jul for 4 mths! This yr seriously seems to be a yr of spending huge on the necessities with debt cancellations to be done by end of this yR as well! I'm so gonna depend on Him to fill the pockets, and for me to tide thru all the financial needs without worries! :))

Somehow the direction for the yr seems bright and exciting but how many do know that it is as important to maintain that direction clear to self by doing the necessary! Haha.. Includes safeguarding own heart and mind, watchful for the dangers and bad influences, resist temptations, make wise decisions bla bla bla.. The list goes on.. :)

Challenging yr ahead, many goals to fulfill, standards to meet! Taking ownership and stay faithful for the little things before God blesses with the bigger things! Haha..
Got to learn to watch the boundaries as well, somehow i sense.. But it's another thing.. Keke..

Btw i'm blogging fm my phone thru emailing! How cool is that man! Haha.. Ease of blogging! :) wee!

Testing one two...

2010-01-14T16:22:00.001+08:00

Testing one two,..

2010-01-13T21:10:00.001+08:00

Life's a climb. Idea of reaching the destination is exciting. What excites more is the journey you make in the climb. It grows you!

2010-01-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

A possibility is a hint from God. One must follow it. -Soren Kierkegaard

2010-01-13T20:44:00.002+08:00

pretty cool, sitting by the waterfront side now enjoying the cool breeze. environment here totally rocks. now i'm at the starbucks at One Fullerton. just finished setting my goals for the year. keke..
this place is a must come for chilling, though it's abit 'ulu'...

year of 2009 had been a roller coaster ride for many, even for myself. as such even for 2010, i'm just expecting the ride to go with more twists and turns. (hopefully no motion sickness~~)

i'm just praying to God that even for this year, I want to outdo what I did in 2009. Things that had gone wrong and I had lived through it, I don't wanna go through them definitely. If the lesson is learnt let it be a history of the past. It can be quite tiring having to go through the same thing all over.

definitely God have His plans for me and I'm just hoping I will be ready to go through them. One thing's for sure is that this year I have to watch over myself and guard those that has been entrusted to me. Things will not seem to be so tempting at the beginning but when the full picture blows and I dwell into it, there's no way of determining how to salvage it and hoping God will come to 'cover up' or minimise the damage done.

as the storm rises and settles, another is awaiting to come and bring forth more damage. but yet with every greater trial comes greater glory when it is overcomed or tided through. It represents a greater capacity of growth and containment for greater things.

I am just thinking, as we grow older, how will we grow wiser? As God anoints and blesses us with more capacity, how do we go about handling them? Something personal for myself, to change my thinking. we are made to adapt. our thinking can't be fixed to one direction forever. we need to position ourselves by changing our thinking to the seasons of God.

haaz, okay this is getting too serious here. just another random posting.. :S *hungry*

Body and Life

2010-01-13T13:21:00.002+08:00

new breath, new life.

when we stop breathing, life stops to cease.

yet we are made to breathe, every second and every moment. doesn't that a simple proof that life is ever going and so important to live on?

out of the composition of air we breathe, there will be a small portion of harmful gases. yet our body is well and able to manage and filter them out. pretty direct to say that we are able to overcome all odds, difficulties or bad things that happen to us and function as per normal.

similarly for our immune system, it is designed to adapt to the evolving threats that our body faces with viruses etc and kill and win over it, gradually but surely. so it also speaks of us, that no matter how hard things are, we will overcome it, no matter what.

yeap there will be some cancer cells or viruses which can overpower our immune system, cause our internal organs to stop functioning etc. still there will be medication available or developing in progress that can help to curb the sicknesses. in real life the medication represents the friends and people God place over our lives to help us overcome them.

why do things that's on the contrary of how our body functions? if there's a difficulty, manage and overcome it. our body is designed to live for a period of time. make that period of time count. God don't design or create something without a purpose. I am a person created for a purpose, you are too.

Kris Allen - No Boundaries

2010-01-13T13:15:00.000+08:00

Pretty cool song. talks about the process of picking oneself up, and no boundaries for what one can do as well. Enjoy.

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you've lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

Coz hear I am — still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe it's harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
B-reak every rule coz there's nothing between you
And your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe it's harder to believe

Yeah...

There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step you climb another mountain
With every breathe it's harder to believe
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries.
There are now boundaries.
There are now boundaries.

2010-01-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

counting down 10 more days before the 1st transition begins.

looking right now on the things to come this year... SOT, my degree studies, work, ministry etc.. many exciting things coming this year..

gonna be a year of expansion, growth in capacity and new adventures to look forward to!

of course there's this project going on as well. time of completion: 7 months. LOL!

2010-01-12T09:58:00.001+08:00

thank you for being such a great friend! :)

2010-01-11T15:57:00.002+08:00

undeniably, life's short.

many things in life happen in a flash of seconds, yet it is the build up of many other things which cause the event to happen. they do not take place without reason or without question. perhaps the question for us will be how do we deal with it when it happens.

making it worth, depends on how one deals with that thing or person. to either add value into it or decreases by destroying or ignoring it.

what results in the future is determined by the course of action today.

Decisions

2010-01-07T23:32:00.004+08:00

i need to plan, execute, make things happen!

A person waiting for opportunities to come is as good as him waiting for death to knock on his door.

I want to fight, be bold, persevere for the things i believe in!

What I believe in will come to past, what I'm fighting for will be realized.

Opportunities are ever present, waiting to be found. Like a treasure hunter who seeks out and never rests till he finds the trasure. There his reward is found.

All it needs, is a decision to move forward, courageously and without fear!

''Be bold and be of good courage'' the Bible says...

How high and low the valleys are, steep as the roads can be, tall like walls will the tsunamis be. Obstacles can be overcomed, because they are stepping stones to our success.

Find anything in common?
Ans: A decision to do what's needed will determine how the above will come to past for you.
You DECIDE your own life!

another random posting.. :S

2010-01-07T23:13:00.001+08:00

ppl do say that time is never enough abd we should try to make the best of what we have..
But ever thought of some who have been successful in life, created a legacy for themselves or had at least made an impact in someone else's life as compared to those who lead an aimless or normal, mundane life? And the common factor btw them could have been they were given the same amount of time to live with (aka born ard same time till age of 50 for eg) yet the outcomes generated can be world's apart?

Yup, probably we can argue that the family backgrounds, education levels would have made the difference. But how many do know that success is not determined by what you do, it's by how you live your life to create an impact?
And seriously how many a time success is determined by how well you pick yourself up from failures, having to persevere in what you believe or dream about and make it happen.
The Wright brothers believed in man having the capability to fly and that belief changed how we travel between continents and modern warfare etc, MM Lee Kuan Yew believed in making Singapore a country who is well and able to function as a world class economy body etc and it is affirmed by how well it's governed today. Many other examples but all these great things couldn't have happened if they have not first dreamt or believed in what they see, spending time and effort to realise them and more importantly not giving up on them...

Anyway it's just another random post which seem no link to many who's reading (lost in randomness haha...)
But pt is, are you willing to put an effort to start believing in what you hold dear to or visualise in, to make it happen?

2010-01-07T16:44:00.001+08:00

when you can persevere praying, you can persevere through anything. :)

2010-01-06T11:06:00.002+08:00

time flies! it's already the 6th day of the new 2010, and i've yet to set my resolutions! :S have to find some time to do it this wk. :S

starting of the year had been a blast and countless nites of not sleeping enuff! :S but it was great time spending with the friends who have been great company and looking forward to many more wonderful days to come! :)

wonder how has the start of the yr 2010 been like for all of you and what will you be expecting to accomplish in the new year?

if there's time shall blog mine soon. :S

one transition coming on and wonder how it will be. :) trusting God for that..

reflections

2009-12-31T09:57:00.003+08:00

Weee... last night's connect group leaders' mtg was great, what pb shared got me thinking alot.

all the plans about following up new friends, working on the members, raising up new leaders, strengthening the current leaders, setting visions and the list goes on.. pretty exciting year ahead for 2010, but somehow I didn't really share the joy and excitement then. I was just thinking and reflecting...

this year 2009 had been a rough, yet an exciting year. more exciting than a roller coaster I would say? meeting new friends and buddies, going overseas with frenz to celebrate birthdays, new jobs and promotions, new cell group etc. many many things. (who says life with God is boring, haha!)
of course many other new things came on as well, breakthroughs came knocking like never before.

some things from yesterday:
- a leader is never about the appointment. the appointment affirms the promotion, like a cell group leader or usher team leader etc. what's valuable in the promotion is the capacity you grow out of the process and then coming on to a new level.
and being a leader is really about taking charge, braving the storms. many a time people seek appreciation and affirmation through being a leader but how many actually understands the risks and sacrifices being one? and more often than not, they don't get appreciated and it is a lot of back-end preparation, trials and scoldings which makes the front so presentable. the endurance and the long-suffering, going through the fire, the purification process wahh...

- right now it is a character molding process. how many times have I stood back coz' of the big challenges and precisely coz' i'm fighting it alone. giving up is not an option in God's dictionary. it is a favourite cheer in Satan's dictionary. imagine yourself running in the sports stadium and lacking behind, with thousands of crowd, everyone (Satan and devils) is jeering 'Give up, give up' and God in one corner, standing out from the light He emits says a loud 'Move on, I will wait for you at the finishing line!' and that word seems to shadow over the thousand jeers in the stadium. and you continue to run and run, forgetting the jeers and persists on to the finishing line!
the thoughtfulness to follow through, the ability to widen my scope and multi-task, discipline, multiple dimension leadership!!!

- balance is the key. above that it has to be pushed with a vision or a revelation from God. when you have a direction to go towards, you will not be lost and instead, it serves as an added motivation for you to run towards the finishing line.

what a way to end my 2009! welcome 2010!!! :D

2009-12-30T08:21:00.002+08:00

just had a chat with Mel last night and guessed one of the paragraphs that I'd typed had reaffirmed her fears, about being detached from the cell group when the busyness of the season comes like Christmas or Easter when the ministry requires more attention?

previously back in Vic's cg, ministry was almost like everything to me and it was pretty common how easy I would 'disappear' from services and cg could only see me during cgm? haha.
Pretty unhealthy yea and it had gotten to me that it wasn't God whom I'm serving for in the ministry but myself. That's when things got haywire anyway but when it came onto the current cg, things were very much different.
by then I had paced down and stabilised myself in ministry in terms of roles and responsibilities and very much of the things are pretty ad-hoc, despite certain commitments to it. things started falling into place pretty nicely for the 1st half and had the chance of fellowshipping more with the cg and knowing them better. So it was the relationships that kept me rooted to this cg.
Pretty unique synergy of how the cg is made up, and esp when I'm older than the rest comparatively which pretty suits me up in a adult cg more appropriately. Anyway despite that, things gelled pretty well for me.

I guess everytime before I move on to a new level, balance will always be a problem for me. As shared in my previous post, cg was there but I didn't felt part of it. Yeap, prayers were made but above the prayers, many more in the cg rose up to the occasion to make things happen which I'm proud of! :)

It is really the balance that determines the outcome of things. Once the focus is lost, the balance loses itself.

2009-12-29T11:19:00.002+08:00

this christmas wkend has been a rushed one. haha, busy with serving and having fun all at the same time, not to forget learning from mistakes and the shifting which took place last Sunday. Think this entire week had been a limit-breaking week and I guess I'm running tired from the many events that I was involved in.

Somehow thank God for things which had pulled through the roof and had grown to a new level. But somehow expectations for me seems to be higher than how it should be for me. On the ball for things, ensure things are running and smooth, clearing the back-end jobs etc. Too many to conquer at times. Keeping up with the standards of other leaders can be tiring but I guess it's part of the training, to be certain I had grown to a new level which is expected of me.

How many I wish I can cried for help but even if did, not many actually heard and responded. Those who heard at most could only offer a listening ear (good enough most of the time) but I couldn't be running the show alone. Times when i tried to geared up some to run with me, I've failed in it. Probably asking them to come to my level seemed too hard? I don't know. Still trying to learn how to even out that expectation.
Learning to lead and handle myself in terms of expectations onto others. Many a time I just felt like giving up, moving on to a new ground but i just stood back, cooled off and tell myself I can still do it but the brink of patience and endurance is reaching the peak. Breaking point may soon be there. Will having more people running the race to catch the fire with me helps? I'm not too sure.
Maybe when the ball is dropped someone will just come in to carry on from where it stops, doing a better job than I did? That may sound like a good idea seriously...

This season is quite discouraged in a way coz' while i'm fighting the war on the ministry end, the cg has enjoyed its fair share of victories with the record attendance for the cell group and all. Well happy for them but I didn't really contribute anything to the cell group and i quite felt myself to be a visitor than a member, let alone being a connect grp leader? Yup the cell group has been loving and thank God for them really, if not I would not have been where I am, to do the things I'm focusing on etc.
Pretty oxymoron with what I'm feeling now right? haha.. talk about mixed feelings. :S

laying down one's life for another

2009-12-22T19:23:00.001+08:00

what does it mean to lay down your life for the other person?

what's the extent of sacrifice u r willing to make so that that person can advance further because isn't that what it means, to allow the other to prosper?

2009-12-22T14:04:00.002+08:00

it is never about the now or the moment, it is always about the finishing line.

what i'm going through now is the preparation of what i'll face in the future.

because of who i am now, i can decide how i want to be iin the future.

all it takes is a decision to change and move forward.

random posting

2009-12-21T13:42:00.002+08:00

'What are i doing with my life rite now?' Ever thought of that qn before?

Missed the times when things have been planned out for u, sch fm 7-2, homework fm 3-5 and dinner plus tv session till 10pm, slp and next day u'll be waking up for sch, which the whole pattern repeats again. Haha.
It's nv easy to ensure things run smoothly as you plan and execute them accordingly. Basically things don't fall according to what you Had planned, especially down to the details of mins and secs.

As we proceed into maturity, it's a natural process that we learn to think for others and ourselves as well. Others in terms of blessing or helping them for eg, ourselves means planning for our own future, goal settings.
Planning not just involves thinking what you want to have in the future but also draft out on steps to how to fulfill that dream and vision you have.
God's vision or your dream, it's all the same. U'll still need to plan out and draft out things you need to do so that you can achieve it!
It's never easy trying, yet it is a process that lets us grow from our experiences, to be more wise with our choices and thoughts.

Planning requires sitting down, penning your thoughts, visualising your future, shaping your present to be in line with what you have or want for your future. And lastly, setting goals, short term and long term and as such, writing it down.

It is practical to write what you plan, we tend to forget easily so it is best if it can be written down. :)

Cheerios!

2009-12-15T08:37:00.002+08:00

Nothing is too hard to complete as long as you make a decision to do it and focus till the end. That decision is the potential and the focus is the power. Release it and do great things from today! -Solomon

Giving

2009-12-15T08:20:00.002+08:00

last leg of the race in 2009. 2 more weeks before the year comes to a close. reflecting back, what are the exciting things and the not-so good things that had happened in your life, directly impacting you in one way or the other.

very often we ask, what has it that I had received from others, which makes me loves him/her more? that if often sounds like we are made to receive only and and loving the person on that condition.
but really how many people will think that loving is a sacrifice and a sacrifice involves giving? Giving's never about thinking how little I can give (as long as I give it's okay) when the need arises, but it is at the moment you give what you can offer for the someone you loves.

Sacrifice involves letting go of something crucial which is a part of you, often involves a pain as well. As much as we say 'i love you' or 'we love someone', how much of your actions show that you truly love the person? For faith without works is dead.
Of course there is always an extent to how much we can give onto the person, which are determined by various factors you may say. Yeap totally agree on it but on a foundation level, isn't loving means having to give or sacrifice for that someone?

Just like Jesus who was born 2000 years ago, had sacrificed Himself for us on the calvary, of which He bore not just the sicknesses of man but the sins too. Above that because He had gone before us to win Satan in the battles that we are able to claim victories in His name. How wonderful is that sacrifice that the sole purpose of Jesus born onto this world is to be the light of the world, brings hope and salvation to the whole world. And asking any father, who would sacrifice his only son to bear the burdens of the world. A son is too precious for a father to even leave him. Yet God did just that, for us.

So on this year end, make a point to appreciate someone you love by giving, be it spending time or just buy a small gift for them. Though actions are small, yet the thought involved and the effort put in is enough to melt that person's heart and being opened to you. Ain't that what Christmas is all about too? :D

Giving

2009-12-11T16:47:00.002+08:00

Should one be more extravagant in giving or to take back some because of a sudden change to his financial situation present or in the future?

Not extravagant to spending till nobody's biz but more towards giving what's necessary and with the intention to bless, rather than giving without the intention to or be stingy about it? blaaaa...

Decision made

2009-12-11T16:20:00.002+08:00

wow.. didn't know things will turn out such but I guess things have to come to an end. somehow over a night, i was prepared and it won't be fair if I insist also.

well, things are gonna be better definitely! better prospects, better future, and better conditioning! sorry that I'd failed You if you had meant to be the other way... I'll do better next time.. :)

So amazing

2009-12-11T09:00:00.002+08:00

I stand amazed, at how wonderful you are. :)

faith activated by works

2009-12-11T08:42:00.004+08:00

morning PM for this month had successfully ended with me going for all of them with much sweat but it's really a sense of achievement for myself! Not to forget the help of a great friend as well! :)

This morning He's so sudden... Come and go, and comes again.. And each time he comes it's stronger than the previous. The touch is so tangible that you just wanna stop but when you stop the feeling goes again... I don't think He's trying to be random but it's real exciting somehow.. Haa.. And this morning pretty scary also, like 4+am i suddenly felt the fear for God for a period of time and it goes away again...

This whole week has been a revelation of "Without works, faith is dead." No matter how much you hope and believe, apart from praying and doing nothing else which are considered works, it is considered 'dead'. Faith won't be activated. You will just max your faith tank but nothing outflows from it. And to unlock the faith to do the works, a FIRM decision has to be made. Decision not by saying or thinking in the head but by acting out that decision.
Hit me real hard~

Now back at work, it's Friday and i'm getting excited for the next 2 weeks! wooHoo!! Great things happening and surely more things to come in the new year.

Today I wonder at work, will things turn out the way it should turn out or will I have to make a decision...

Toodles!

*thinking of making that move... should i?*

2009-12-10T14:42:00.002+08:00

It's thursday! WEE! 1 more day before the weekend comes! hehe...

so excited for the next 2 weeks until Christmas comes! Coming up are the Candlelight services on 19 and 20th, cell group X'mas+Thanksgiving on 23rd! gonna prepare for so many things for many people! Cards with scrapbooking, gifts beautifully wrapped coming your way!

But gonna need lots of time to prepare. Think the most exciting during this month is really the people is around me, whom I'm so blessed with! :)

Woohoo!!!!

Exciting!!!! Cheerios!

random

2009-12-08T08:47:00.005+08:00

random shout-out:

BYE AsCOT!!! Have fun in NZ!!!!
Bring back some kiwi okay? LOL!!!

Welcome BACK Phoebe!!! *We MISS you lots! *
*hope your luggage is not too heavy haha...*

DZ come back FAST!!!

:))

*P.s. everyone seems to be flying... when's my turn? :)*

2009-12-03T09:07:00.004+08:00

it sets me thinking since last week..

what have i been doing to make an impact, to the lives of others and not the things of man?
definitely the lives of others value more...

ppl often thank me for the things I had done for them, but it's really because i did helped them in a task or during an event but after a while such things are forgotten and i realised i haven't really made an impact in their lives.
and i do see around others' blogs giving thanks to certain people who had impacted their lives and you could really feel the gratitude out of it. and it really touched me seriously.

Comparatively to the above, what did i actually do to make sure I did impacted someone to shape his life for the better? virtually nothing...

Being a ministry person is good, you get to expand your values and talents in the area which you are serving in and often most talents are towards objects or things. Suddenly I'm just reminded of Ray telling me before that being in this ministry it's never about being just an admin person, but it's really out to make disciples and growing the ministry through the ushers, though admin can be important...

As we are talking about the Great Commandment, the Great Commission and the Cultural Mandate that includes impacting the marketplace, really what are we executing out of these 3 values?
One word: People. They form the heart and soul of where we are today, the society. So if all I'd done was just helping to stand in the gap for someone in an event, what have I actually done?

point to ponder for the week...

fighting

2009-11-30T10:52:00.004+08:00

the feeling of being battered after battles, hurt and wounded after countless of near-death encounters, tired from the days of fighting and without seeing the sun.

enemies raging towards you in triumph roars of victory, sounds of carriages and stomping of horses, grounds breaking and shaking as giants like Goliath stomps with each step, thunder clasping in the sky and everywhere you turn is dark with the armour of theirs. there is no light for you.

seeing the scene of you being surrounded by the enemies all-round. the only way to escape is to fight through for an opening or be left dead by the enemies.
either you choose to live, or to give up and suffer under the hands of your enemies.

as you fight, enemies come charging more ferociously than ever. with each slay of your sword, another enemy appears. with each block of your shield, he hits more fiercely, wanting to thump your shield.
as the sword gets blunt and unable to slay, as the shield gets dented and breaks appear, you are left with your bare hands to fight. every punch and kick lands a dramatic blow onto the enemy and he falls. yet, many more are coming.

you are hurt, pierced by the staffs that looks like pythons with evil eyes, slashed by swords that yearns for your blood, bruised by the punches that wants to crush you like an ant, deafened with roars as loud as thunder.

tiredness sets in, desperation to breathe, stop everything and cry increases. fear sets in, hope diminishes. And someone whispered into your ear, "Why don't you give up? Why try? Once you throw in the white towel, everything will stop. You will be released from your pain."

sounds familiar to some?

what will you do when you go through such a trial?
Give up?
Continue to fight, hoping up till the last breath someone comes to kill the enemies in one swipe, up till your very last breath?

rising above situations

2009-11-25T09:15:00.000+08:00

in a situation where faith is challenged, that's when the outcome is decided at the point of decision making. To work on the faith, release it or to lose it and give up.

With dreams and visions coming for you, it is often inevitable that it can be big, too big for us but it can be reached and fulfilled. All it takes is a bit of faith and self confidence to reach out for that dream or vision and make it truly ours.

through Him, even the most difficult task can be the easiest as long as you believe. :)

impatience, anxiety, fear, low self-esteem. all these are none but by-products of the journey we go through. throw it aside! Move on, rock on, shake on! Exciting life on the way! woohoo!

2009-11-25T09:07:00.003+08:00

the new season started 3 weeks ago, when someone spoke a dream, a target into my life.

since then probably things had changed, my weaknesses start to surface and this time, rather than sinking it through it was reflected right onto me and i could just identify it in the instant. perhaps He's telling me that I should work on those things as I go on.

time is short. but a lot of things to be done. when potential's fully unlocked, nothing really can stop what's to come for Him.

very blessed this few weeks coz' of friends that ard me who's always there to support and make my life so 'random' but fun? haha...

i just saw a new meaning to where i am in this ministry because the relationships had blessed me so, so much! :)

cheers!

2009-11-23T11:32:00.002+08:00

no matter what they say, I will always stand by You.

~ Keep on, Keeping on.

2009-11-23T11:32:00.000+08:00

no matter what they say, I will always stand by You.

~ Keep on, Keeping on.

2009-11-20T15:11:00.002+08:00

there is never the issue of time not being enough. we set the deadline, we set how much time we need to accomplish something.

it is always about the heart wanting to make use of the time we had allocated to accomplish the task by the deadline.

time constantly runs. the factor is only ourselves.

2009-11-19T10:26:00.003+08:00

yesterday had a fun time fellowshipping with one of the great racers I've seen in the ministry and for God. shared and crapped on a lot of things but one which hit me was this: The Great Commission.

As the verse says:

Matthew 28:19-20 (NKJV)

¹⁹ Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, ²⁰ teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Amen.

So he was asking me what was the great commission all about and my answer was really about making disciples. For you to make disciples, you have to start loving them, care for them and build relationships. And it needs to be cultivated to be a lifestyle.
Ministry is just another platform or a word for most of us to serve in a different arena for God but looking at the whole picture, all things lies down to the basics and it's really making disciples and building relationships. If you are serving in the ministry to exercise and grow your talent, to help out in other areas of the ministry, it's fine. But will all these count if we start to lose the passion for people?
And loving them ain't just asking them how they are doing, week in and out but it's deep down fellowship of wanting to bless each other, to teach each other what we learnt etc...
It did hit me in the back, reminding me as I'm more into ministry, I shouldn't sink too deep and forget about the essence of the entire organisation: people (be it ushers or members or friends).

So i'm pretty gladful for the peeps that had been in my life and their presence makes the difference! :)
Well, that's what friends are for! :)

till next time~~~ :P

2009-11-19T09:51:00.002+08:00

Gen 28:10-22 (Jacob's Vow at Bethel)

This falls in the time when Jacob was on his way towards Haran and as the sun had set, he found himself a resting ground and as he slept, he dreamt of God in the heavens with the angels singing and dancing before him.
That's when God had revealed and promised Jacob things similar to what He had promised Abraham in his days as quoted in v13-15: "And behold, the LORD stood above it and said: "I am the LORD God of Ahraham your father and the God of Issac; the land on which you lie I will give to you and your descendents. "Also your descendants shall be as the dust of the earth; you shall spread abroad to the west and the east, to the north and the south; and in you and in your seed all the families of the earth shall be blessed. "Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you."
As Jacob woke up after that dream (which he found it too amazing to be true still), he anointed, dedicated the place to God and proclaimed God as his LORD God (v21).

I was just writing this summary of that portion of the book.. I won't say it's really random but I was feeling down quite a few minutes ago and God just pointed me to this passage. Pretty cool, coz' from the dream God had given Jacob, from Jacob's point of view it might had been big and had probably questioned himself if it could really be done. People around him had done so but there were still doubts in his heart if it could really be accomplished.
I think I'm quite like Jacob in this case where I think some dreams are a bit too big to accomplish and with the setbacks around, I tend to think if it was the right route for me though He had blessed it for me. Otherwise I will be thinking if I'm the right person for the right job coz' there hasn't been any remarkable results for myself and I seem to be dragging the other people down. Surely if it's from God things should had been more progressive than this right?
(P.S. the above are the thoughts I had, they do not composite to anything more than thoughts)

Then as I was typing, God revealed the word 'time' to me. Time is an indication, a measurement for us to guage in terms of us doing things, or waiting for a matter of fact. As quoted from http://dictionary.reference.com, time (noun) refers to the following:

duration regarded as belonging to the present life as distinct from the life to come or from eternity; finite duration.
a particular period considered as distinct from other periods

Time is finite, means it is measurable. And from the time someome promises us something to the time the promise is fulfilled, it is considered a period. And usually during this period there are processes involved in having that promise fulfilled, with external factors involved as well. So I sort of got this revelation that feeling down, getting anxious etc are all part of this process in this period of time. They don't mean the end!
It just means to continue walking, walking, and walking, doing what is necessary until the time the promise is fulfilled. Similarly to Jacob again, it took a period of time before the promise was fulfilled for him and who said that walking with God is like a bed of roses? Haha!
But the key point I'm getting is continue to rely on God no matter how good or bad things are, coz in the point of dedication of ourselves to God, it means we are willing to consecrate ourselves to God and believing for the promise He had given us to come through.

Amen~~

Oh man i sounded like i was preaching.. back to work.. haha.. *hope it's not considered too random for someone, haha*

2009-11-18T09:11:00.001+08:00

it kills to be sick.. dun like being sick... haiz....

2009-11-11T11:11:00.000+08:00

i dun like falling sick seriously... waking up with headaches and it's never a fun thing seriously...

feel like knocking my head against the wall at times but thank God I don't! Haha!!

this wk so far had been fun!

Sat had fellowship with CG in PS and celebrated Mel's bday. Pretty fun of how we sabotaged her but a bit too quick to do it. Haha.. Followed by Starbucks till 2.15am. o.O I think this cg is good at this, hanging out at starbucks till wee hours! but it's fun! haha.. crappy jokes on how Roy never washes his jeans till 3 months later etc, oops! But going home at that timing means 3 hrs of slp before ministry the next day... Haha but it's worth it! :)

Sun was ministry and it was like a bit of mess but thank God for people standing in the gap, but it's like the best day for me personally. Felt that day was the start of a greater breakthrough in the department personally as I'm on the way to change someone's life. Not talking about who but I'm really seeing changing a person through discipleship, one by one. To personally impact them and train them up to be as good or better than me! Though the effects are not great as it is to one, but it is something. Guess i'm discovering a new talent in this area? haha...
Had a talk with 80 as well and he gave me an unimaginable target which i had my jaw dropped for 10 seconds. Will need faith to believe that it will come but i'm more amazed by how blessed I was in my talk with him.
*Difference between a feedback and a complaint lies in the word "attitude". Good attitude gives constructive feedbacks for one to improve but bad attitude detests others with complaints*
How cool is that? :)
Followed which I had a dinner treat from Jenn! haha.. thanks so much for the treat :) next time we go out to eat my turn to treat ya k? :P

Mon and Tue were pretty okay except I found someone which I had known for sometime but didn't realise we got similar interests in history and arts? it's so amazing really! LOL... anyway, more fellowships to go! haha..

so that's all for now... tata!! :):):)

2009-11-11T10:00:00.000+08:00

recently have been falling sick and getting 'sick' of gg to work literally at times.. but i need to persevere on.

i need to buck up, buck up, buck up!! Face the reality of life, it's not a foam party but a life full of thorns and you get hurt when you are not careful! of course there are still amazing things ard like friends and family and God.

set things lying around, and you are doomed for death. people will warn you before hand of the danger ahead, you still don't listen, you are on a faster track to death!!
*okok sounds too serious * haha...

just finished helping Mel do up the slides which she had difficulty in.. Haha.. back to work!

2009-11-04T09:53:00.005+08:00

Crossroads. I'm at it once again...

Right now the thing to do is really to think and reflect. I'm good at where I am now, but I need to be better for the future.

Sit down, think through what do I want. Pen down and make sure I follow through till I get it. To summarise: I need to plan!!

Keep going head-on with things, I'll just go bonkers with bumps on the head!! haha...

Instincts are good, rationale is good, emotions too, but where should the balance be?

Answers only I can find out for my own.

It's my life, time for me to live it my way God wants it to be.

What about the now? What about the future? All these I need not worry about as soon as I know where I am going.

No point being emotional all the time, over pointless things. Time to face it upfront, tackle it like a man, solve it graciously and with style.

This will be who I am.

2009-10-28T09:52:00.001+08:00

what you see now is just the tip of the iceberg, more things, greater and exciting than now have yet to come!

Friendships

2009-10-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

Well, just accidentally deleted my post and now I'm trying to recall what I just typed! roar~~~

was blogging in my other blog about how crazy my schedule was over the weekend and had the 8hrs of slp over 3 days but yet, had the most fun time fellowshipping with different ppl!

on Friday nite as Alan's place, God showed me how relationships or friendships can connect each other together, and how that connection opens up heaven over other's lives in terms of blessing them, having fun together and being there for each other. And it is so amazing how people of different dynamics and personality can just link and click with each other.
And I did felt God saying this "Without Me, things that you see now will not be possible."
What I saw was the genuine friendships that has been through the tests of fire and the strength of it cannot be broken by anyone unless God allows.

And I did start to wonder how my friendships are with my friends and how strong are they really. Pastor ever mentioned before as I quote "Friendships are not friendships unless they are tested." Such an amazing thing, invisible and intangible yet it is the link that bonds us together!

I'm beginning to see the pureness of relationships and like what the Bible says "being purer than gold" haha...
As I'm typing this, I realised that relationships open up the doors of our inner self and exposes us externally. But it is through such that people or your friends are able to see the following:

The real you.
Your strengths and weaknesses.
The talent and potential within you.
How to develop or grow you to be a better you.

As you are true to yourself and others, the same principle will take place for others as well. And as each door opens, the greater the opening of the riches of heaven God will open for you. There are always certain things that you ask for, either it doesn't come or more things will come (of course it is not about asking for trouble la...) in the form of bonuses etc.

I cannot emphasize more on that as God make use of people ard us to realise our talent, grow upon it and explode on it; to grow our character, slowly molding us until we are His perfect masterpiece; to share our joys and sorrows that there will always be someone there for us coz' we are never alone. There may be the power of One, but it is the power of one unified body with people of the same vision going in the same direction, making things happen together.

I wish and hope one day, I can really call on a group as my friends (tested in fire by God) where all of us will have the same vision of helping each other to fulfill their destinies, linked up not by weak strings but by the bond of friendship and more importantly, serving God together! I may have different groups of friends and all are great, but which one will truly be those that will stand by me in times of trouble, and those that will hi-bye with me in-season and disappears out-season?

We all proceed with age and stages. Stages of what? Stages of being fed and taking, but it is never a one-sided matter in relationships as those that take will ultimately draw dry of the giver and then, the giver leaves or moves on. Hence we too will experience a stage of us giving to others. To summarize it is like a cycle altogether.

Pretty blessed all round by all the friends I have and want to say thanks for making a difference in my life, big or small!! :)

promotions

2009-10-26T19:56:00.002+08:00

woohoo, back to blogging after a week.. haha..

last Saturday was an eventful day as besides having a wonderful fellowship both in afternoon and after service, i had a surprise and that was promotion to Ministry Member in the church! Haha, and thanks to my CG for the great gift! :)

anyway I sort of remembered how i used to be dying to be promoted, to show my worth that 'you will not regret promoting me' kind of attitude back in the early days of ministry. And how out of that killed many of my dreams, deviated me from what was important for me in terms of my life, friends and gf then probably... How it dragged me to the lowest point of my life, with attacks upon attacks that I felt like giving up totally.
then I had my ministry ldrs who came in to pull me up and out of the valleys, how they would talk to me about the importance in serving God only and promotions are from God etc. And God showed me as well that promotions need not be the benchmark to what I can do but it is the potential he gives that allows us to do exceedingly and abundantly. Imagining myself running a Logistics team with core members of the department (thank God for them) for the greatest event the church had organised then: Asia Conference 2008. I won't talk about how it had opened doors for me to be discipled and trained by the leaders but back then, I was only a helper and to people, helper means you can't do more than what a TL does in the ministry but God showed me that it wasn't true through physical actions.
And precisely because of the capacity God had placed in me, I grew from it and rose up to do more things for God in the ministry etc. Though I did get more attn from others (being high profile and all) but all these weren't important. Haha...

Along the way of course there were struggles but it didn't dragged me down but it pushed me up even further wanting to do what God has for me in terms of my ministry. And thank God as well affirmations and recognitions came but I knew all these weren't possible if not for the capacity and God's blessings. Thus it isn't really about being promoted to an appointment that sounds great to people but it is what people sees in you, the real you that they recognises you to the level of your capability, which will in due matches to your natural promotion. :)

But people do ask me how do I feel about my promotion? Sounds kind of bad but I will always say 'ok lor, thank God lor' haha...
But one reason for saying is because the capacity on the inside outgrows what you are capable of on the outside that when it comes, it will serve as a booster and a motivator, not a limiter or a benchmark because God is the benchmark of all things. haha...

:)

Commitment and Responsibility

2009-10-20T09:17:00.002+08:00

What does commitment means to you?

What does it mean to shoulder the responsibility given to you?

Will you bear to cross the line to be offensive when necessary to safeguard and exercise what you have been given responsibility for? Or rather than being offensive, to be defensive by sacrificing yourself and having the possibility losing the thing entrusted to you?

Just like the servants with the 5 talents, 2 talents and the 1 talent. The servants of the 5 and the 2 talents took responsibility of the talents, traded and doubled the talents.
What about the servant with the 1 talent? He hid and buried the talent underground coz' he knew that it would be safe as that would not be stolen by anyone. (Seemed responsible enough rite?)
But when it was time to return to the master, the master rebuked that servant and took that 1 talent away from him for what he did.

If we translate it to real life, what if God has given us a talent and told us to be responsible for it by growing it and all we did is to ensure we keep it safe for God by not exercising it? And on judgement day we come before God and He ask us what did we do and realised nothing was done except 'burying' our talent. how angry will He be such that He takes that away from us, even in Heaven?
I don't dare to imagine that really...

So what does leading a life being committed and responsible means to you?

Keep that thought on. :)

2009-10-19T00:07:00.001+08:00

Moving along in life is the definite. But how you move along really remains the question.

When you are committed to doing something, the passion and the determination to complete it comes in. But what happens as you stumble in life? Do you withdraw from what you had set out to do or you press in to ensure you finish what you had started.

As you get yourself up from the times of stumble or failure, how do you ensure that no matter how many times such things happen, you will keep on moving and fighting?
It's really about fighting the good fight by having the faith and finding your anchor point. Similarly to a ship out @ sea, to prevent itself from drifting by the currents, it needs to drop an anchor to secure itself on the seabed. When the ship is ready to move out will the anchor be raised.
So what is your anchor point in my life, that no matter how harsh things are, you can depend on that to survive, moves on and excel from?

God is an ever amazing God.. He gave us practical things like people or ministries whom we can fight for or hang on to. But because all things are created by Him, they will one day fade away should God decide so. But really what God wants are through these things for us to look up to God ultimately.

The ever abounding love, grace and mercy from God that overwhelms us.

But all these ain't happening unless we make a decision to go for a break and welcome God to do the changes in our lives.

Now's my turn to make a decision. I'm still torn between of not to go after. Always constantly held back by doubts and fears of inequity. Comparison arises which are unnecessary.
If I truly believe it's good, i should be gg for it than holding back and let things go to waste. It's either a hit or break seriously.
I need to change my life drastically starting from the inside before i can be effective on the outside.!!

Yeap, I need to move on! :) More things are waiting for me. Time to priortise things! And pray! :))

Sss

2009-10-15T12:24:00.003+08:00

Life's is about living for yourself but also about living for others too.

But where should the balance be?

2009-10-13T09:30:00.001+08:00

Never waste energy trying to be well-known.Today’s hero is tomorrow’s zero.U work on character & leave reputation to Him - Rick Warren

Friends, Love

2009-10-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

I wonder and think, at times how miraculous things can happen to you... How different the world seems apart between friends but you can click with one another...

Life is never about walking the journey alone although there are some parts of your life, you have to go through it alone. But the most comforting thing will be your life will never be lonely.

For me there will always be God, family, friends like the UM peeps, cg members and others as well!

Friends who are always there to:

Fellowship.

Care.

Concern.

Create havoc.

Provide significance.

Bring love.

Make fun of each other.

Be there for one another.

Laugh. Joy. Smile.

More importantly, call each other FRIENDS.

They may not be there physically, but it doesn't mean they are not there eternally. Swing the swing yourself, and you may just find 10 friends pushing to keep your swing going.

I pray for whatever happens, I'll grow to be stronger and for everything that I go through, I'll know people better, get in touch with them better. I had never been good at keeping friendships long enough to find its worth but entering a church environment 4yrs ago helped to change that a lil'.

Even at the crossroads of deciding where to go, friends who walk together with you until that point will have to decide their path. It may be the same, or a different route. As mentioned in an earlier post, I am thankful for both good and bad, that happened during the journey. But we all have a different path to walk. Will still be constantly praying for you that you will meet others who will support you in your next phase of journey.

I ever had this revelation that life is full of crossroads. On the road you will meet different people, travelling down the same road. At one junction, some will turn left, some may head straight, all depends on what destination each person is heading to.
But definitely at each road or season if you can identify, some will be there to be with you. At another season, different group of people appears. I guess that's how God works. When it is time to let go, it is to let go.

Only love is able to endure through all things that even as they go on differently from you, love still abounds among all.

1 Cor 13:13 says: "And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love."

2009-10-12T10:12:00.002+08:00

Thank God for the friends that have been walking with me and never fails to believe in me. Although sometimes we can be very irritating to each other. Haha.

Name as it is, you guys have always been important and shaping me to be who I am and who I will become. Thanks in advance for those who may come in later too! :P

If I'm not able to move on with you as you take on a different route, I wanna thank you for the short part of the journey that I spent walking with you. All the best in your future endeavours. :)

Cheers.

As what Pst mentioned, "Keep on, Keeping on."

2009-10-08T16:48:00.002+08:00

hey...

if u r reading this, will things stop as it is? I thought after clearing up the air it will be alright but it seemed to have gotten worse...

feels weird even when smsing or msning you. like no topics now and feels dry...

is it me or is the way it had been handled?

2009-10-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

this just suddenly came into my mind:

Step up, Step out.

how cool.

thanks for the fellowship yesterday. it was good. :)

2009-10-07T16:05:00.003+08:00

Do I resent so much of ppl that's around me that instead of ppl loving, i just push them away?

or those i choose to love isn't really reciprocating and because of situation, things didn't happen the way it should be.

how contradicting.

2009-10-02T14:06:00.002+08:00

the power of intervention, to intercept the aftermath of matter from worsening by cutting deep into the roots of the problem.

2009-09-14T12:04:00.002+08:00

this morning is such a killer...

thank God still for bringing things and myself through.. still got hiccups here and there but felt things could have been done better.

can tell my colleagues wasn't very happy but still nice enough to advise and stood in the gap for me.

felt so challenged today but things will be better..

Farewell

2009-09-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

Just managed to send Maria and Carlos off as they are flying to meet Jing in Melbourne for a gd 10 days!!

So jealous!!!

I also wanna go holiday too!! Roar!!

Maybe i'll go diving with Li ting they all at the last wkend of Sep? Haha.. I wanna have a break from work, getting more and more stressful but definitely it's not the end solution coz i still got 2 more yrs with them!! I need a new found passion!

Anyway congrats to one more Ra to the Rara family.. Rayanne!! Haha.. Shall viait them soon and in the meantime, it's back to work tmr, had encountered a huge obstacle but things will still work together for those who loves Him!

I shall make it happen!! :)

In the meantime as well, enjoy guys!! See u guys back on 21st ya? Hee!!

UM - My life then and now

2009-09-02T23:57:00.003+08:00

time for some short update haha..

Was just thinking recently how my life had been full of ups and lil' downs but they are the tougher ones ard. :P and thinking of how my life would be if i hadn't step in to answer the vision to enter Usher Ministry back in Nov 2005.

I remembered back then i had only joined church for 6mths probably when Pst was mentioning in one of the svcs that we would be shifting to a new, temporary hall called Singapore Expo. Being the nerd me, i wouldn't know where it was but it was like, oh ok! Haha..
Strangely enough, Pst was encouraging ppl to enter ministries to serve esp when we shift to the new hall. At the same time UM was having a recruitment but it didn't really occur to me then to join this ministry.

However about the same wk, out of nowhere I had this strange vision of me looking towards Echo from the main stage and i was serving as an usher then!! (the features of the hall i saw in the vision reflects EXACTLY as what u see in expo today)
So being the young and excited boy, i quickly called and told Vic of the vision i had and asked if i could join and after she said yes i was like over the clouds! Lol..

Anyway then i just signed up and they said i will hear fm them in 2 wks so i was like ok.. Then 2wks passed, no news, then 1 mth and 2 mths, no news!! I was like am i not selected for an usher and was so anxious about it that i kept pestering Vic (practically disturbing her too) asking did the ministry mentioned anything or gotten back to her etc and whenever i hear a 'no', my heart just sank deeper than the Titanic did. Oops!

Then came 2mths later when I saw Hui Erl then popping by during my cg debrief, asking Vic to sign a ministry form. Iwas so delighted to see her coz finally i'm entering into ministry!

Tada and there i was in the first lesson and my trainer happened to be the super-tall and handsome Peng Boon who did an orientation with us. Being communion wk, the trainees (me, pin de and josephine) helped out in communion as per norm and after debrief, we were told to return same time next wk.

Anyway the following wk, we returned same time, same place and when we approached Hui Erl, i rmbed her expression then as she found out she had forgotten to call us up for training and no arrangements were made then! How funny was it? But being in the last svc, there were bulletins to be prepared and so we helped out while Hui Erl thought of sth for us to do.. It was then 11 inserts to slot into the green A4 bulletin and it was CRAZY with the no. Of inserts and not to forget, 2000 bulletins to do! Haha.. Here comes the best part, when we gathered for briefing, we were introduced as NEW ushers to Sect 11! (imagine untrained ushers becoming new official ushers?) haha.. I could rmb still the dress code then was blue and there was agnes, jul and shirley standing in front of me talking and giggling as we were being introduced.
(dun ask me why i rmb the, but i just did)

So there we go, my first official duty as an usher given to the last svc in JW! I was serving under Joelle then in Echo i rmbed too..
It was great fun overall till then! Haha..

Then came to the early days of Expo when chair arrangement was common, adding chairs during svcs like nobody's business and sweating and bleeding was a common sight! Haha..

But the best part about those days were the Support on Sats when ushers fm all groups would come together to slot in inserts into bulletins etc.. (that pt of time per svc need to do about 8K ++ bulletins and inserts were still as crazily many then)
It was the time of knowing diff ppl fm diff grps and svcs and crapping, seeing everyone working together to complete the tasks at hand and all the fun and laughter fm jokes and fellowship! It was really great and the whole UM was like one big family! all the happenings that took place in Conf Rm area where there weren t fans and all that was free and in abundance was the sweat fm everyone, esp the bros! Lol..

Because at that time attire would be formal with tie for ur duty svcs, i bought 2 formal tops (blue shirt with blue tie and brown shirt with brown tie) for that reason only.
Being new to the place, we had to serve every wkend etc and it was real tiring plus dun really get to sit with cg! So u wld find me wearing on one wkend a blue shirt and the other wkend the brown and vice versa. The whole process lasted for 6mths before it was more settled down.. Haha..

Well it was then my breakthrough came too.. I was asked if i could help more at team level and i was promoted to helper then, June 2006, just before my bday. Haha.. That was when my capacity was challenged to take on leadership roles and to handle things fm what i could do as an usher.
It was then when i had to juggle between NS and ministry and cell group in church... Pretty hard but all came up strong.

However being young and straight in thinking, i was very into the idea of promoting to TL at that time, as slowly i transited away, slowly fm serving God to serving for that posn.
You could say at that pt of time i was super availing for ministry and would fight to do this and that. It created a gd impression for my ministry leaders but it upsetted the balance i should have for my cg and i started to neglect it. How hurting it is to hear that 'Oh Junius is in ministry, so he's not sitting with us, every wk' that it became a routine. Ministry started becoming a substitution for my 'cg' which i would devote my heart and soul to, for the wrong purpose as i lost sight of God in the ministry.

So came the time when i would compare with people also why are they promoting faster than me and i would not let it go etc.. (quite silly as i come to think of it now hahaz) jealousy and envious-ness took over me and i started to feel sour towards things but i still continued to serve.
Only different is, i was stagnant. Whole process lasted for 2 yrs and whenevr my ldr would ask Vic for my promotion, it was voided straightaway and that upsetted me even more.. But the passion to serve continued.

To expedite, along the way God did some things that changed the way i see things:
1. Arrange for ldrs who became my close friends and mentors me.
2. Halted my promotion and brought me to square 1 in ministry all over again.
3. On June 2008, he gave me a revelation to be more people oriented. *the word in season for me then was 'People'*
4. God started putting ppl in my life that values my existance and touched me with their love.

So in that season came 2 other revelations as well, the story of Mary and Martha when Jesus was in the house and the word 'Ministry exists when there is people. Without ppl, no ministry will exist'.

And all these things slowly brought me out fm where i was and it was then things started became more bright for me as i start to take on mentor roles, exposed to event plannings a d being a PA to a section ldr.
Being a PA to Karen was a great breakthrough for me as i could really see how she had trained me to be where I am, the sight, planning and paying close details etc. She had a plan for me, just like God did! And she had absolute trust in me, protecting me like how Jesus did for His disciples then. I had never experienced such a great ldr and fren like her. :)
Then came my first big day event which was Asia Conference 2008 Logistics when I had the chance to be made IC for the Logistics Ops, with the most 'zai' ldrs like Tze Hwa, Jeremy and Karen overseeing and guiding me altogether!
That was when i felt my capacity exploded too, the planning, coordination between depts in church, working close with other ldrs And the stamina to last through 6 full days (inclusive of support day) of ops! Not to mention the heavenly numbers of counting in tens of thousands etc etc etc...

think at then i started to earn the trust of ldrs and i was involved with many other things too.. I was at that time feeling compromised because of the appt barrier between myself to other ldrs who are higher in rank than i am..

Being limited in your thinking limits your capacity for greatness.

Thank God for Yonghui then to constantly reaffirm me, that being a helper doesn't mean I cannot do great things for God, even as compared to other Team ldrs etc.
That came as an encouragement and it brokethrough my thinking to just serve with ease and because of all these events, my attn turned towards serving God and meeting the needs of the ministry once again. More powerful, i had in my mind that i cannot neglect my members! Haha..

So that's when I start to see my life being changed and as a bonus because of the change, i had the affirmation fm my zone ldrs like B.Darren and Phoebe who believed in my talent for ushering and event planning!

Yea.. So 3 yrs of my ministry life all summarised in this story.. Wonderful now looking back at my joruney and wondering how the next 20yrs of my life will be in this ministry that's for God and for ppl and how lives will be impacted because of such!

I'm still in awe of how much I had grown because of what God you did for me and the people who believes in me!

I never regretted stepping in since the day I'd decided to lay down my life for this ministry and church!

Thank you God!

Tata!!

Special credits to go to: B.Darren, Victoria, Phoebe, Adeline, Yonghui, Eugene, Karen, Jeff, Peifen, Hwee Tze, CS, Ee Rong, Eliz, Tze Hwa, Eric, Alan, Yew Weng, Jeremy, Agnes and many others...

You are the reason why I'm still here today, serving God like never before... Thank you all..

my life in a twist

2009-09-02T10:44:00.002+08:00

I ever wonder how my life can be so full of colours and twists with the many turns at unexpected corners and sometimes God can just catch you by surprise...

Recently quite I have been talking to many people on the topic of 'relationships' and realised that I hadn't quite gotten why the previous had failed and the consequences were quite dire...

It only boils down to one thing: Vision.

I was a t a loss of words when someone asked what vision do I have for myself and for my partner?

What am i good at that deserves that someone?

Funny but it served as a revelation for me. I could have sarcastically passed it off saying my way of doing things is taking one step at a time but we all know how important it is to plan and having a vision is part of the planning!!

And it do hurt seeing all the damage done and how much i desire the hurts can be healed through time and exponentially but that isn't quite possible.

How sad it is to break a person's life because you fail to visualise and plan for the future, worse still being ignorant about it.

That's sth I got to do before continuing to move on.

2009-08-14T16:07:00.002+08:00

so exciting! I just gotten my new workstation that includes a 20inch wide screen LCD!!! Haha.. How i wish I can bring it home to enjoy but using it at work will still be as exciting! :)

Work's really going on fine but 1 thing, 1 thing I really got to do is: Multi-tasking. If you think I can multi-task while during svc duties or logistics, I will advise you to re-consider. Haha..

On the road for more expansion!! WooHoo!!

On a side note, very random too.. people ard me seems to be getting attached, married, or giving birth soon.. what's with the trend now sia.. :X

touching lives.

2009-08-12T09:31:00.002+08:00

this coming wkend is the long awaited SOT Graduation! Haha.. it's not me that's graduating but some of my frens are..

I'm just thinking for this wkend though it's like a norm for some, what can i do to spice things up a little for them?

do and write some cards? haha.. it's been AGES since i last touched my SB materials and almost certain dust is collecting upon them. :S

it came to me as a revelation for the last few days how some words or a sentence can help to touch a person's life and make him or her feel affirmed and wanting to continue the journey. (miss M, i'd seen the blog post and thanks for allowing me into your life to guide ya haha)

i need to build back the personal touch and make the term 'human' more real to me in life because i need to function around people and not circumstances. :)

back to work now.. tata.. see if u'll get a surprise from me this wkend haha. :P

Definition of Life

2009-08-05T11:08:00.001+08:00

How do you define life?

What standards or criteria will you use to determine how good or bad your life is?

Being Teachable and Leadership

2009-07-31T08:35:00.005+08:00

wow.. looks like dust collection level's up to 1metre in this blog, better clear the dust away, haha! *blows off the dust*

This morning when I woke up, amazingly these 2 words came into my mind and was pondering over it which seemed like hours but only minutes had passed because of the things that followed.

Wanted to cry somehow as I reflected upon myself in these 2 areas: Being Teachable and Leadership.
Teachable not just to the leaders above me, but personally more towards God. How has my life being effective enough for Him, not on Saturdays and Sundays but during the days outside a church environment?
The way I commune with people, maintaining and fostering relationships, productivity, time i spent with Him and more importantly, my attitude.
Frankly to say on the outside I may look great or seem so good in doing certain things that I can't be left out, deep down at times I may feel so lost or my attitude simply sucks to the bottom (forgive me for using this word, haha)

And when poor attitude or character is within you, God is not hesitant about surfacing it really, to people who are dear to you when He's serious about you reflecting and changing it. No longer it's about the guilt, being regretful for your actions or being apologetic about the whole thing because previously you may have wasted your chances before. Well that's me on some occasions recently really. Areas of discipline, finances, faithfulness.

God's faith is ever abundant but there is a limit to what He can tolerate before He takes on a different route to deal with you (just like parents who will try the harsh method if the soft method don't work on the child, yea...)
My weakness is really presenting myself as being weak, person that's not 'perfect' to who? My leaders whom I hold dear to, my friends and peers. Probably it's the pride issue too coz' you may start thinking that this person may not respect you or let you handle this and that anymore after this incident so you try to cover up to show that I can do this and that...
So PTL really that He choose to deal issues with me using that weakness of mine. Not saying it's bad but it's really comical when He just simply knows you more than you know yourself? Haha...

Being teachable is about having the right attitude, to learn from your mistakes, using them as a form of foundation building, and building yourself up from it.
Being unteachable will be having the bad attitude, feeling sour from the mistakes you'd made that you think of lots of reasons to cover them up, and instead of using them as a form of foundation building, you start building the mistakes up.

Of course it takes a decision to have that. And probably some things to go along will the boldness and courage to admit and learn, willingness to repent and reflect, and doing the right actions to rectify. But doesn't all sums up to having the right attitude and you definitely have to be sincere about it and ensures a thorough follow-up such that it do not come back to you again. i guess also that how we should deal with all the trials we experience, now and the future.

Later on God was showing me on the area of leadership and reminding of the people who are with me like my dear ushers in my usher team, the LPs in the Logistics dept and my connect group members plus cell group.
Sounds like a lot of things to take care right? Haha...
Suddenly something surfaced in my heart that said "I cannot bring you to greater heights to lead unless you are willing to change and being teachable" (some sort along the line, still in sleepy mode at that time)
Thank God for all things that had happened and progressed like the chance to be more involved in Logistics dept, stepping up to be a connect grp leader and BS teacher again and recognised and acknowledged to be released into serving in UM.
But those above are already capacitated to the max at my current level. Meaning with what I am now, those are the things I can do at max. And I had been running and serving at this level for too long that it's becoming dry seriously.
Leadership's not about having the power and the chance to lead or serve. That is the base but it involves one on a more personal level whereby you have to constantly push yourself to greater heights, how? by fresh new revelations and visions coming from God through time spent with Him in prayer, fasting and reading of the Word etc.

Only when God builds you up, can you build up others!

No one can function as an effective leader when all He does at best is to bring those under him up to his level and stops there. Growth is an ever progressive thing really. What's the point when all he can do is to build people up when he doesn't or can't build himself up through God? (i'm speaking to myself actually, hahaz!!)
In 2007 on my 21st bday, God brought me to a transition of being a people's person and not ministry person and reminded me that my world should and will surround people.

Yet I feel so ineffective in the last few months when I'm shock to find I had nothing to give, feed to my ushers or my disciples and even if i could, it was all the things I had from the past which superbly are not for the now.

I'm not sure but God works in amazing way at times. He will place people who are really excellent in their own field or talent under me and potential is so evident in their lives that you just can't wait to unleash their potential to serve God in His kingdom. Peeps like wei liang, yao peng, jacob, carlos, mark, tim, gordon etc. So many, so many. I'm so proud of them for who they are!
I do not want to come to a point whereby I'm so ineffective that they will disregard me as their peer and mentor because that will indicate one thing: I had failed in my responsibility as a leader, in the spiritual realm and especially in my personal life.

I was being reminded of this teaching "When you hit the ceiling of your growth, learn to breakthrough by receiving new revelations and visions from God. Only then can you be able to feed those whom you are discipling."

How true is that!!
I'm on a competition to change myself for the better because time is running short, even as I'm blogging right now. I need to start now.

*A lil' summary that I have just out of what I typed*
Being teachable yourself to God --> Transition in self --> Grow to be a better Leader --> Discipleship to others --> Leading others to grow.

(P.S. God is so amazing to flood so many things within a short few mins with Him today only. Blown away!)

610

2009-07-17T09:52:00.002+08:00

this is the number i'm going to play around with for the next 4 mths till Dec...

gonna triple my capacity from the previous proj I had..

sometimes i wonder how crazy MOE can be at times... :S

oopsy..

Dreamland of JunieSol

Ran

#3 Love is....

#2 Love is...

#1 LOVE is...

2010

The greatest of all is, love

Vision for a leader

Vision is the oxygen, the breathing life of a leader. Without the vision, there is no leading, no direction to go.

Moments, Decisions, Eternity

Blog revamped!

Random posting

Convergence

Random posting...

Essentials of Life - Blood

Do or do not?

Love

Surprises

recalling the dream...

面对，态度

author

dreams...

Glimpse of light

As simple as 1, 2, 3

love

Random posting...

Testing one two...

Body and Life

Kris Allen - No Boundaries

Decisions

another random posting.. :S

reflections

laying down one's life for another

random posting

Giving

Giving

Decision made

So amazing

faith activated by works

random

fighting

rising above situations

Matthew 28:19-20 (NKJV)

19 Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Amen.

Friendships

promotions

Commitment and Responsibility

Friends, Love

Farewell

UM - My life then and now

my life in a twist

touching lives.

Definition of Life

Being Teachable and Leadership

610

¹⁹ Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, ²⁰ teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Amen.